November: So they tell me that I'm riding on his name to bring myself fame and recognition. They tell that I'm using his name to put myself in the spotlight that I don't rightly deserve. Only there's a problem with that reason and logic because... no one remembers Matthew Lee and no one cares that I "stole" his name. No one cares who Misery was or how Bane killed Miss Crimson. Or how Misery walking away from the ring on October 5th, 1997 put an end to what the Fatal Charms were and gave way for Shawn Twilight to give the wrestling world something new for them to cheer for. No one cares because there's no one here who remembers him. At most they remember Shawn Twilight starting it all by smacking Nightshade down and putting all doubters to rest. Or they remember Jeffery Drake breaking a tired old man and sending him into hiding forever. But they don't remember Misery. They don't think of him when the words Fatal or Charm are uttered. He's nothing more then a name that's thrown around occasional when it's convenient. Maybe they bought the FFG box set and caught a few of his matches, watched a few interviews, but he doesn't hold the same mystique for them that he holds for me... for you.

Oh I wish this "new generation" of wrestlers knew exactly who he was and what he did for this industry. For us. But they won't, can't, and never will. Because they weren't there when it was all happening. Weren't watching when everything good and everything tragic happened in his life. Now he's just a fucking name on a wall in the AOWF Hall of Fame. No one here in the LWF remembers here. No one in the CWA remembered him. No one in the IWL remembered him. No one in the NGW knew him. Those are a lot of years there of no one knowing who Matthew Lee was. Now here we are in 2007 almost ten-years now since his name mattered and he was still being called out from retirement by the likes of Rush, and you have the nuts to stand there and tell me that I'm using his name to gain fame and recognition? No, I'm not using his name to gain anything. I'm just trying to pay tribute to a man I knew and loved. Just like you're suppose to do everyday you enter that ring. Just like many of us have never stopped doing. No what I'm really doing, and this is what really pisses you off, is that I'm using a name you feel you deserve. Because the term Fatal Charm has brought me more recognition then the name Misery ever could. You feel you own the name and that you've built it into something wondrous and great and fantastical, and my father is behind you one-hundred and ten percent only because he doesn't know any better and has nothing else in his life that would keep him anywhere near in the vicinity of mattering, but to suck on your nuts and live off the lime light. So what this is really all about is how Misery doesn't matter anymore, you made the Charm name what it is, and how fucking dare I even associate myself with that name without your blessings, consent, and all the proper forms in order. Well hey Jeff allow me to clue you in on what I think about that.

Fuck and you.

It's not your name, and it's not my fathers, and it's not Shawn's. For Christ's sake he wouldn't even let Shawn have the name because he was too "God damn special" to have the name. Blue needed to be himself and reinvent and re-imagine. He had to go beyond the bar that was set for him and he couldn't do it in Misery's shadow. So he went out and did it and kept my uncle's name and legend alive while you waited and waited and waited. And then when he decided to step away. When he'd had enough fun you suddenly jumped in and copied him and everything he was. You brought nothing new to the table Jeff... you didn't even bring back a glimmer of what Misery was. All you did was pick up where he left off and rode on the wave of what he'd created. You're nothing but Shawn Twilight's shadow. Please deny that. Please pretend like you're something new and original and not just his carbon copy. And after all why shouldn't you be? Why wouldn't you want to be? I mean he did find this way of presenting himself to the world that just made jaws drop and the fans leap to their feet, but still when he did what he did it was to garnish the attention and affection of Misery and now what do you do it for?

Yourself?

Nothing?

I'm worry you feel the words Fatal and Charm belong to you, even if you and your sad crew have decided to drop the word Fatal because it's not "cool" enough anymore... it's a little too cheesy. Hey fuck face get a clue it's not about being cool it's about paying tribute to the man and what HE created. Not what Shawn Twilight created. Not what you think you created. It was always about him and the whole bunch of you think it's about yourselves. Why? Why should it be about you Jeff? What the fuck did you do that makes you anything? Did you bring us together? Did you lose anyone to the villain? Did you create careers? Did you do anything besides win a few titles here and there and drop a witty line here or there? Now that I think about it you were right to drop the name Fatal because that's not what any of you are anymore. You don't want to pay tribute you just want the glory. Meanwhile all I want to do is make sure his name is at least uttered in the squared circle. That the masses out there don't think it all began and ended with you. You're not the beginning. You're not even the ending. You're just a substitute until you fall. And me? All I want to do is honor him. That's all I want to fucking do and you won't let me because it "borrows" too much from the only identity that you've ever had. Well hey champ all I was for years was a name and a brief appearance in 97 so I can understand better then anyone how hard it is to pull yourself up out of obscurity, but you don't have the right to tell me if I can or can use the name the Fatal Charm. You don't get to make that decision and neither do any of your friends. Because I can't remember the last time his name dropped from your lips without some kind of prodding, usually from myself or a broken man you sent into hiding. Now because of me the name is out there. People question it and I tell them. They mock the name November and I tell them. I make sure his name doesn't die. I'd forgotten that's what I was suppose to be doing. I'd forgotten that the Fatal Charm wasn't about fame but about honoring him and what he'd done. He made all of us... even his brothers. He made us all matter and now you want to be the only one who matters. You want it to be you as the shiny star at the top of the tree, but you don't get that anymore.

Never again.

I'm going to retire you Jeff because that's the only thing that matters. It's the only thing that makes sense. I have too much to do still to allow myself to fall into obscurity. I won't be counted among the fallen because that's not the way the story's suppose to end. Not even anywhere close to how the story is suppose to end. So you'll have to excuse me if I'm looking past this Friday. If I don't really put much though into this little fiasco you have planned for us. Because I could care less what happens tomorrow. That doesn't matter at all does it? It's all about the fall and just how I'll do it.

Because I will do it.

'night.

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